Pain is Important in Life, and Why you must Experience it

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“That’s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt” – John Green, Fault in Our Stars

Pain might be the strongest emotion the mind is capable of feeling, it can numb your sense to almost believe as though you’d never feel it again, but pain is felt nevertheless. It is important to feel the pain like it’s important to breathe, to eat, to sleep. It is as important as it gets to give. You ask why? Because when you don’t know what pain is, you hardly get to know what it is to dwell in bliss. In a study of contraries in post structuralism, a sign is itself just because it is not something else. Red is red because it is not black, happiness is happiness because it is no suffering, no pain.

6. To Relieve Pain

Life is made up of people, of moments. Painful as it might get- people die, memories blur, things fade. But do you stop living? You just end up numbing yourself to this sensation of change, but at some time it has to be felt. This ain’t no choice. Numbing the pain is an option, but only temporarily, and when it demands to be felt, it would be worse than your capability to feel it.

You learn from pain, you rebound from suffering. Pain will be felt and then fade away, leaving scars and marks but those that remind you of the wonderful miracle your body  is capable of, to heal. Every scar is but a reminder of a war you overcome, every pain is but a step to a stronger you. A stronger self belief of having the capacity to suffer the penance and get through it and rise to glory. Pain, you might know from your reading of the Bible or other religious texts, is the test almighty takes of your will to not give up.

To experience pain is like experiencing a rainfall, perhaps a little messy, frustrating and even downright unwanted at a time, but the sole reason why the rainbow exists. Pain will happen and then dissipate, but if you quit, you quit forever. Pain too is felt only by the capabilities of the sublime. To feel pain, you are first made capable of enduring it. Pain is not what is felt in a moment of hurt, that scar would fade but you’d often still wonder if the pain went away. Pain is the desperation of the soul to break through one layer of fetters for the wish of a free mind, the desperation for your identity, for your soul purpose of living, for people, for love. That is pain. The wounds hurt to heal. Pain is experienced to endure and increase your tolerance. To learn from it. It is for you to know life in it truest form.

They argue that a man cannot be a feminist. He cannot write of period pain and childbirth. He can never know the pain a woman endures. He might give his own account of events, but they will be biased till he gets to experience the feeling. How then will humans know what it is to feel the loss of life’s truest desires if not through pain. You need to experience the pain to know what it is to love, to trust, to feel. It is almost as though it is a chain of interlinked terms. Emotions are subjective. You wouldn’t know what you feel when you’re calm if you have not been stressed. Pain is your best teacher. Through pain you learn not just to heal, to rebound, to recover but also to cheer your best in the moments which are devoid of pain. Those built of delight, of love, of life.

“The Unending Paradox is that we do learn through Pain.”- Madeleine L”Engle

 

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357 Comments

  1. Jean Valjean

    April 10, 2015 at 2:57 am

    Fuck you for misrepresenting this article.

    • Rashika Manning

      April 13, 2015 at 2:31 pm

      Right

      • Joseph Jiménez

        April 13, 2015 at 3:51 pm

        Hey rashika

        • Joseph Jiménez

          April 13, 2015 at 3:52 pm

          Are you there

          • Joseph Jiménez

            April 13, 2015 at 3:54 pm

            Jellian

  2. Eddie Vedder

    April 10, 2015 at 4:12 am

    How many people died painfully because you wanted to increase your clicks?

  3. kitty

    April 10, 2015 at 8:34 am

    If only you knew what it is like to live in chronic pain. When daily tasks become impossible. When you cannot sleep because your body is aching. When you can’t function at work because of the pain. Pain is killing me. Killing my life. It has taken everything I once enjoyed away from me. It doesn’t make you stronger. It makes you sad and miserable and tired of living. That’s my pain.

    • justme

      April 12, 2015 at 12:04 am

      I feel you :(

    • Jillian Wojciechowski

      April 12, 2015 at 9:07 am

      That is EXACTLY how I feel. Your simple yet hard-hitting words brought instant tears to my eyes. I couldn’t agree more, either. People, esp. family members whom aren’t suffering, do NOT understand the difference between “living” and “existing.” I am tired of existing, too.

      • Rashika Manning

        April 13, 2015 at 2:07 pm

        Me too

  4. Str8OuttaDaCPT

    April 12, 2015 at 1:27 am

    If you DONT or NEVER HAD ACNE in your life you shouldn’t be stressing I wanna kill my self finally now cause I had it since 7th grade now I’m a junior an I’m TIRED of it hate the way it feels an looks. wanna find a way to kill my self right now. My life is pointless anyways.

    • Tianna

      April 12, 2015 at 4:38 am

      There’s so much more to you than acne. I’m sure. I’m also a teen struggling with ance. And I HATE it so much, but it’s a part of the process for most of us. How do you know your life is pointless? It’s barely begun yet. We’re all still trying to fin ourselves and our purpose in the world. Some people find their purpose at 19 some at 80. Don’t give up yet. Acne isn’t forever. Death is. And what could you possibly do while dead that you can’t while your alive? Think about it beautiful.

      • Str8OuttaDaCPT

        April 30, 2015 at 6:13 am

        You just don’t understand though ha there’s so much more problems in my life than just that. An sometimes days at school just make life harder sometimes makes it feel better. Either way if I’m at school or anywhere else I just feel like I’m not wanted. I never lived with my mom my dad doesn’t really even live with here either just my grandma an little brother. My dad loves with his gf. I don’t really like to go out much cause of my acne. Never really got to live life cause I always felt so uncomfortable ever since 7th grade an can’t just live life the way I want too. Always feel under pressure. Like sometimes I wish I wasn’t even born cause then I wouldn’t have to do deal with all this stress.

    • Joseph Jiménez

      April 13, 2015 at 3:56 pm

      Str8outtadacpt

  5. Michael Flannigan

    April 12, 2015 at 1:07 pm

    I hate my life I seriously do..I hate my family but most of all I hat myself. I hate my weight, the way I look and the fact when I try to buy nice clothes they never look good on me. I have been cutting for about 2 months now. I don’t get bullied at school but my main trouble in school is the fact all my test results are really bad, my friends have no idea about the way I feel. I feel like I’m never going to be loved, there’s seriously 0 gay people at my school. I want to stop eating all together, I want to be thin like all my friends I want to be able to he good at sports and I want to have nice expensive shoes but I don’t. I’m thinking of killing myself sometime soon, my plan is to step into traffic like a motorway. I hate life and I just want to end this pointless existence

    • Marko Tot

      April 13, 2015 at 10:02 pm

      U said u have friends.. Tell them how you feel… I know its not easy… If that moment comes, don’t say it serious. Tell it like a joke, then step by step try to explain to them… If you really think no1 loves you… Remember I love you!

      – Tell some1 for that suicidal thoughts.

    • Alina Napier

      April 13, 2015 at 11:46 pm

      Michael, My name is Craig I to have felt the same way you do I am overweight and have been all of My life, I have lost Good Mates through suicides some through accidents and some through Drug Addiction, I have even lost one of My first Girlfriends I ever had who never smoked, drank or did drugs I was one of her pallbearers who carried her coffin Her name was Mary and I couldn’t understand why she was taken at such a young age, And I still wonder why now at 51 years old what sort of Woman she would have been, I’ve also lost children both to death and through marital break-up. I have servere depression I think of killing Myself nearly everyday and when I was younger I even tried a few Times in different ways but as YOU can tell I was unsuccessful and I wonder WHY, WHY does GOD want ME TO SUFFER EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, But YOU no what Michael through it all I have found happiness and peace I was fortunate enough to have met My New Wife her name is Alina she is a Filipino and I have a new Daughter named Patricia who I have put through school I’ve also renevated the traditional family home with power, hot and cold running water, ALL the things that we in Australia take for granted, andthat where I’ll see out the rest of My days. MICHAEL I TRULY HOPE THAT I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HELP YOU, ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE LOVED BY SO MANY PEOPLE EVEN IF YOU DON’T THINK THAT YOU ARE, YOU ARE LOVED, I don’t know YOU but I have been compelled to write to YOU out of love for another Human being that is Suffering, THINGS WILL GET BETTER MATE I KNOW THEY WILL AND YOU’LL BE A BETTER, STRONGER MAN THEN MOST BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH AND WAS ABLE TO COME OUT THE OTHER SIDE, GOD BLESS YOU MICHAEL, AND ALL OF THE BEST FOR YOUR FUTURE. Craig

    • laurie Rrrr

      April 14, 2015 at 4:35 am

      Michael please contact me on facebook @ Laurie Radatz,I want tot talk to you.

  6. Colby Gordon

    April 12, 2015 at 10:29 pm

    Can we all meet up and have a suicide party?

    • Juliacebula6

      April 13, 2015 at 2:20 am

      Is that supposed to be funny?

      • queso

        April 13, 2015 at 3:42 pm

        Not at all. Being serious af.

        • Joseph Jiménez

          April 13, 2015 at 3:57 pm

          Hey queso

          • Joseph Jiménez

            April 13, 2015 at 3:57 pm

            I want to die also

          • queso

            April 13, 2015 at 4:44 pm

            Wanting to die is exactly why we’re all here. We should all put on suits and ties. Dresses and make up. Get a penthouse hotel in malibu and play spin the revolver. If a group of us can make it happen I’m sure we can go out how we always wanted… Not alone.

          • Jester

            April 15, 2015 at 7:42 am

            I wish they had more of these parties more often in more places that you speak of queso . To be honest, if I were casually walking by one afternoon, and just happen to stumble upon other REALLY PEOPLE having one of these parties. I’s want to be next or after next in line no hesitation. Why? Cause it’d be easier cause other people are doing it, (I don’t want to be the only looney on the news because) and also before anyone could worry, maybe you’ll be out of it already. And done. But yeah . Don’t see those kind of parties anywhere.

          • queso

            April 15, 2015 at 4:29 pm

            Hey jester. I want to be the first one to throw one. It will be luxurious and maybe even a celebrity will attend. I think if we all write journals-bring them and take an item that we cherish, we can always be remembered. Maybe even change a hurting persons mind. Who knows. This pain has to end though. There are too many of us not getting the help we desperately need. Venting is helpful to a certain extent but it doesn’t solve anything.

          • Toby

            April 15, 2015 at 11:25 pm

            haha you hit it right on the head, im 20 years old and ive been thinking about suicide for 6 years going on 7. let me know if anyone is actually down for this whole party thing. i think we should go to Washington hop the border to Canada ( Vancouver ) and party till were out of money then OD or some shit.

          • queso

            April 16, 2015 at 2:09 am

            Lol why Vancouver?

          • ariana Roque

            April 22, 2015 at 3:17 pm

            Ok, i don’t know any of you but this brings me to tears reading all these comments. please none of you guys end your life it is not worth it!!! YOU ARE LOVED!!!! I PROMISE EVERYTHING WILL GET BETTER LIFE IS FOR EVERYONE YOU JUST HAVE TO BE STRONG FIGHT THIS WHAT YOUR FEELING IT WILL GET BETTER!!! if any of you need someone to talk to i am here please email me arianavio09@gmail.com

          • Barelybreathing

            April 15, 2015 at 11:00 pm

            We should do it! No Bull shit!

          • queso

            April 16, 2015 at 2:13 am

            We’ve gotta make plans and get enough people to pitch in.

          • Toby

            April 15, 2015 at 11:13 pm

            Sounds like a great way to go, im down..

          • queso

            April 16, 2015 at 2:16 am

            Cool im ready to go too. We should get a limo and round everyone up.

          • queso

            April 13, 2015 at 4:41 pm

            Hi joseph

    • Rashika Manning

      April 13, 2015 at 2:07 pm

      This is not a joke this is life

      • queso

        April 13, 2015 at 3:42 pm

        Im not joking.

        • Shane Walker

          April 20, 2015 at 9:05 am

          same here. I want out

          • queso

            April 20, 2015 at 2:19 pm

            Lets figure out where we are gonna have it and get started. The most i can do is bring the gun and pay around $2,000.

          • Guess'd

            May 5, 2015 at 7:33 pm

            But at most the gun can ‘assist’ 9 ppl& if u r not used to fire arms ur more likely to loose ur chin then ur life& then u’ll be on LOS. Although honestly I’ve never tried self shooting- whether it was cowardess or vanity. [[[or ghost hands from atop the clouds guiding me to continue this preposterous, exhausting, whiney….]]]

          • Robert Brito

            April 25, 2015 at 10:40 pm

            i’m thinking use rat poison

    • Fundo Mkhonta

      April 16, 2015 at 7:19 am

      Owh yah,,,I thought i am the only one in this thing. The devil is really at work. That can not be possible.

      • queso

        April 17, 2015 at 1:58 am

        The suicide party?

        • Guest

          April 20, 2015 at 1:16 am

          I’m in.

    • Shane Walker

      April 20, 2015 at 9:04 am

      i’m in

  7. Taelyn Hurrell

    April 13, 2015 at 10:51 pm

    I’ve been depressed since I was 7 years old. Things I don’t like talking about. I’m so messed up in my thoughts about death to the point where I can’t manage to handle it. I’ve been left alone for too long. I’ve been starving myself for 3 weeks and I can’t stop crying during class I think I need more help than I have now..

  8. Jackson

    April 14, 2015 at 2:32 am

    I’ve been wanting to die since I was 10 . my life has been a total wreck and its continuing to do so. I’m tired of being a human. I’m disgusted with this body and mindset of which people call a being . my life before me is beginning to crumble and I don’t want to be apart of it . like this so called girlfriend of mine . made me feel worthless and pathetic but all I did was provide and “loved her like no other has before” and what I get in the process? A goddamn knife In the back. . on top of that I’m being casted out by my so called family cause “I’m a burden” and they meant it to. I’m just some one that should be one less person to worry about in the world

    • ariana Roque

      April 22, 2015 at 3:14 pm

      You are loved. Please know that, it may not feel like that now but it will get better please don’t end your life because of something temporary you are feeling right now. Maybe not right now but one day you will be able to start a family and love your kids like you didn’t have and you will feel so much more rewarding. Stay strong! if you want to talk to someone you can email me arianavio09@gmail please don’t end your life. it will get better it always does

  9. laurie Rrrr

    April 14, 2015 at 4:37 am

    If anyone wants someone to talk to please find me on facebook Laurie Radatz.

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:26 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk please ……..

  10. Leah Wilson

    April 14, 2015 at 5:13 am

    I want to die. I don’t see the point in living. No one cares, they all just ignore me until I go away. They think that if they pretend I’m not there long enough I’ll just go. Well I’m tired. I’m tired of having no one to talk to or to love me. No one really loves me. No one ever will. Everyone wants to come to me for advice but where’s everyone when I need help? My family hates me. My friends hate me. I just wish someone could be there you know? Just to ask me how my day was and actually care about how it was. I’m just done.

    • bg

      April 14, 2015 at 6:11 pm

      I’m sorry Hun that you feel this way, sounds like you need a girlfriend. so , she can be there for you when your family, and friends can’t be. when I was 17 y/o I thought I found my one true love. it was like love at first sight. Having someone there to help me when I was down. and things like that., I have been married to him since 2001, and it seems like it gets harder and harder every day to live with him. 3 kids later, and I feel like I am a single mother, He is a guy , I find that he has been working nights, and sleeping all day. as for sex. we have it at least every 6 months. He is a crabby person. the reason why I married him is because he was funny and very outgoing. he was a clown more or less. now, he is taking anxiety meds, and I thought it was only me. I don’t know if I am asking for too much. but, I would like my old life back, like when we first met. we don’t even touch each other anymore. sometimes its a kiss goodbye when he leaves for work. I have been arrested for not paying driving tickets. and ended spending the weekend in jail , which was ohh so fun. or when they put me in the nut house because I took 5 Xanax, and thought I was going to kill myself. so, 3 days in there. and what was my husband doing at home, when I came home I found a porno dvd in my room. he lied and said it was my oldest sons which at that time he would of been 12, hes 16 now.. he is a liar, he likes mexian ladies. why he married me idk. I am Italian, I don’t really look it, other than the dark hair.and the last name. but, every porn he gets is with huspanic woman, and he also dated them as well. wtf he is doing with me idk. since I had kids, I had gained weight. he doesn’t want me to lose weight. he thinks I will leave him for someone else. so in the mean time I get to stay over weight. this is just part of my messed up life. sorry I wrote my life to you.but, im just letting you know that you are not alone at all.

      • Adam

        April 16, 2015 at 9:26 pm

        please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk please …..

    • Janely Oseguera

      April 14, 2015 at 11:51 pm

      Hey I hope you feel better and how’s your day. I’m probably not the best person to talk because I feel the same way, but I really think that you should tell someone or someone in your family so they know how you feel. I tried to commit suicide and no one in my family knew and I woke up on the floor so I know that life sucks. So keep living

      • Adam

        April 16, 2015 at 9:20 pm

        please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk please .

    • Erik Janzen

      April 15, 2015 at 7:19 pm

      Let’s talk I’m Erik 12508031907

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:18 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk please

  11. Wayne Williams

    April 14, 2015 at 9:55 pm

    I want to die it is my birthday on Thursday I will die then watt is the best way

    • Janely Oseguera

      April 14, 2015 at 11:52 pm

      Dude please don’t do that you have a life to live and it shouldn’t end now. I’m pretty sure you have an amazing life to live for. I’m a complete stranger but I’m here for you

    • Erik Janzen

      April 15, 2015 at 7:17 pm

      Can I ask you why

  12. DEE

    April 14, 2015 at 11:42 pm

    Im not sure if I want die! but over the last few months it seems more and more appealing!, everyone thinks im this funny, popular person with loads going on in life but I feel dead inside!, I just don’t see me being really happy again!, x

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:18 pm

      I wild make you happy please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

    • kev

      April 24, 2015 at 12:14 pm

      I feel the same dee just noway out i really do feel for you

  13. Sophie Dati

    April 15, 2015 at 1:23 am

    HELP

    • Erik Janzen

      April 15, 2015 at 7:13 pm

      If you would like to talk reply back

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:17 pm

      I’m here please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

  14. Sophie Dati

    April 15, 2015 at 1:25 am

    IVE WANTED TO DIE FOR OVER A YEAR NOW AND TONIGHT ITS GONNA HAPPEN.

    • Chris Childers

      April 15, 2015 at 1:34 am

      Sophie, don’t do it. I’ve struggled a long time with this too. I know I’m a complete stranger and that we probably came to this page for the same reason, but fight it. I’m here to help.

    • Jester

      April 15, 2015 at 6:43 am

      Go for it buddy, not hating here, just an understanding from a person who turned a shit load of corners too looking for anything but nothing at the same time. Peoples are the losers. I hope that their are many parallel universes. I want to find one that has ot a single person. I hate people. People hate, they push their own beliefs, more people more drama. More to give a shit about, I would absolutely be happy being the only thing in the universe. I hate you all. Not personally, just you all are a burden in the end, if it were up to me, I wouldn’t eat(if we didn’t have to to survive), I wouldn’t sleep,(again, if we didn’t have to. And I would like to not be seen by anyone ever. I hate you all, none of you will most likely never understand. And I certainly do not want,need, a home to tell me other wise. Everyone , please …. Just don’t even try, like seriously. Theirs always one bulkshiter out their who thinks he have he answer, to you I say go ur own way, I’ll go mine. And I hope it doesn’t lead us to the same place …. Ever. And if it does. Then I’ll find a new way, and so forth…. And so forth . I love that.

    • Jester

      April 15, 2015 at 7:31 am

      Sophie! Listen, do me work on the other side, do something that will greatly benefit me here if you can(and if you’re willing to). I always thought someone could pull strings from the other side if maybe, maybe not. Just a thought. Plus if you were serious, I hope you find what you’re looking for, I hope you get to where you want to go, and keep moving till you know where your lap begins and lap ends with all the proper things or I don’t know, just keep to yourself, and find a place to hide. C ya soon Sophie. Cause with how short life spans are now, we will be heading that way too soon. Alright peace .

    • Erik Janzen

      April 15, 2015 at 7:11 pm

      I want to so bad too my hart hurts and I can’t seem to fight out how to get overy it it’s not from a break up I just hurt

      • ariana Roque

        April 22, 2015 at 3:20 pm

        please none of you guys do this!!!!! DONT END YOUR LIFE, FIGHT WHAT YOU ARE FEELING!!!! tell someone how you feel!!! YOU ARE LOVED!!! I PROMISE if any of you need someone please email me at arianavio09@gmail.com

  15. shontel

    April 15, 2015 at 2:04 am

    Iv been wanting to die since I was a teenage and as I get older I want to do it more iv succeeded a couple times a year ago and I was hospitalized.I just want to die I feel like I don’t have any one all my friends and family do is put me down call me names tell me I’m a bad mother and I’m a worthless piece of crap its all the time I always have to put a fake smile on and I hate it.I can’t ever talk cuz when I do I get told I’m just making excuses or I’m trying to get attention or I’m lying so I just do what everyone in my life tells me to do. I feel like a loner

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:17 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk xxx u r loved

  16. Terrence Austin

    April 15, 2015 at 5:17 am

    I don’t want any pity on me I just keep fucking up I’m a liar I’m disrespectful I live a lie in life I can’t seem to get my mind straight to do what I need to do I really think I’m just going to end my life because I think the path that I’m on will never change and I’m going to end up in prison or in jail I’m just wondering does anyone know anyone who is able to help someone like. Me and please help me see why I can’t stop doing te things that I do my birthday is on April 22 I’m going to turn 17 I’ve looked to god and I’ve looked to the devil for help if I can’t figure out why I can’t seem to do right then I will end my life on April 22 2015 if you have any info that can help dm on Instagram @handicap_squad or let me know on kik steezy_tee

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:16 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

    • Peyton Nunally

      April 19, 2015 at 12:17 am

      i know exactly how u feel.. ive been wanting to kill myself for a while cause of how my family is, its always popcorn around here. One person mouth off and then everyone joins in, my dad even wants me to leave.

      • Terrence Austin

        April 19, 2015 at 12:30 am

        Man finally someone who understands what I’m talking about its like you say one thing and it changes so much from mouth to mouth and its such a big deal when to start off it wasn’t anything

        • Elsabe Smith

          May 7, 2015 at 1:38 pm

          you still alive I see, that’s good, glad you didn make any stupid decisions

      • anonomouys

        May 1, 2015 at 12:35 am

        totally

    • Cmarie

      April 22, 2015 at 2:47 am

      I live that life, my situation is pretty bad, I’m so fucked up to the point where I have no way of getting myself out of my situation, I thought death was for me, sometimes I still think it is, maybe somewhere down the line though, if we have someone to vent to, someone to understand us we could hold on to something. If you ever want to talk, let me know.

      • Lite

        June 10, 2015 at 3:15 am

        I think u r right, i read many of my friends like me. I think we need someone who is not going to judge us ,listen, n say i understand. We should exchange all of our contact. We probably can have the chance to understand or be understood. ….my email 4 anyone. ..featherhills@hotmail.ca

    • Junior

      April 23, 2015 at 1:12 am

      I’m the one who wished you a Happy Birthday today on your kik steezy_tee
      I hope you didn’t make any permanent decisions today & log back on here.

    • Lisa

      May 6, 2015 at 3:19 am

      I know someone like you. What does it take for him to be honest with me? I don’t understand how someone can let you get so close to them but they wont let you in completely, even though they say they trust you and care about you. Im not judging you hun, but the way you feel is how he is and I just want to understand him. I dont want to live any more because he makes me feel worthless

  17. disqus_vgzR6bJKN1

    April 15, 2015 at 6:24 am

    I just need a way out of this life. Please just help. I don’t look for attention. I’m just trying to ease out of this world.

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:15 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk …

  18. Jester

    April 15, 2015 at 6:54 am

    it’d be such a great world if weed want it to be, like wtf are we all doing here. Doesn’t anyone come up with any good ideas anymore, the world is such a depressing place. Such a waste I see all around. Who even cares about this paragraph here. I’m so disappointed in the world. No more good ideas. Just people who want to get ahead, want to avoid each other, no proper steps to help anyone or sometimes our selves . How fucked up, the human race is over and no one crosses the finish line. I just hope that if their is an after life, that were not bound by forces of nature, or 1 planet for that matter, and I hope its not run by government. But in my mind I believe is a stupid, and far fetched idea. something that doesn’t have to keep us close to another, but rather get away. Like only if parallel universes, where you can well I’m getting way the fuck off topic here, just no point. Stale, wish me luck in anything specific for heavens sake, something helpful, it’s the absolute small-ness of my request, I need your help, trust me, i have no theory or any signal shred of evidence, but I know it, if I had to(with absolute verification required) I’d bet my death on it that your positive thought towards me actually help when all the (unknown) and proper variable are factored in( even when we don’t see it or see it, and even when it fails we didn’t do the one thing that we may have or may have known that may have accidentally been a factor not necessary or was just the wrong time. Peace .

    • Barelybreathing

      April 15, 2015 at 10:58 pm

      I feel the exact same way right now. Skipped my classes yet again. Used my last twenty to get high. Now I’m in bed numb and wishing to die. I just wanna die.

      • Adam

        April 16, 2015 at 9:15 pm

        please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

        • ariana Roque

          April 22, 2015 at 3:19 pm

          YOU ARE LOVED!!!!! DON’T GIVE UP ON LIFE!!!! IT WILL GET BETTER I PROMISE!!!

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:14 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk . Please

  19. Ryan Mans

    April 15, 2015 at 8:30 am

    Been thinking of killing myself off and on for a while now, things look good in life aka i have a job, bills are paid, talking to a cute girl…. then sure as the sun rises, it all disappears, every single time. I dont want much in life, but it seems even the little things in life i do want, theyre just not meant to be mine. Im overweight, always have been. Im losing my hair. I used to love life. But everyone i know and cared about has turned their backs on me. Im a 27 year old loser who has used up any resource ive had. Cant drive because of a DUI and cant find any work anymore. I owe the courts over 2000 dollars by may 6th and im just not able to pay it, so im probably facing another charge/jail time. Ive been to jail, i AM NOT going back. Reading all your stories breaks my heart even more, i am that one person who would listen to you, who would want to meet you, to know you, but alas, here i am myself. I could kill myself right now and not be found for a month or more, most likely by my landlord looking for rent. Sad, i know. But pity I dont seek. If i could just find a decent job and could pay my bills and avoid jail, i would try to carry on. But ive exhausted every option around me and im running out of time. I have no one, no kids, gf, really no family. My mom is going to take it the hardest. It kills me just thinking about it. But if she only knew my pain, she might understand. Sorry for such a long post, just kindar ambled on. I have no one else to talk to.

    • Telly

      April 15, 2015 at 2:02 pm

      Hey, if ever you need someone to listen to you, im right here. You can email me or something and rant about life.

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:12 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

  20. anonymous

    April 15, 2015 at 7:02 pm

    I’ve been struggling with life for a very long time (since middle school). I use to look forward to the future and think life will get better just to get me through the hardships, but now I’m tired. I don’t have anymore will to go on. I’m tired of all the struggles of life. I’m tired of just a moment of happiness that doesn’t even last long enough for you to take a deep breath and back again to the struggle. I’m getting worse. Back then, thinking of suicide didn’t bring me happy thoughts or feel of relief. Now each time I think of suicide, I feel at peace. I feel like all my problems are melting away, and that brings me to a happy place of peace and relaxation. I’m tired of putting my husband through these endless periods of depression. My parents don’t understand me, nor does my siblings. I don’t know what I’ll be leaving behind but death seems to be the way out of every hardship life had put me through or will continue to put me through. I’ve gone from giving my life to Christ, to being disappointed and hating God for creating me. Now I’m undecided on where I stand with God. I do, however, believe he can help me with how I feel about life, but I doubt that he will do anything because it is LIFE after all. But I can’t take the struggles of life. I’ve thought long and hard of the best way to go, but I don’t own a gun. So I have decided to slice my throat and both wrist, because I don’t want to leave through after a suicide attempt. I leave alone in a state where I have no friends and family around. Therefore, by the time my husband gets back from work, I’ll be long gone.

  21. k8tty

    April 16, 2015 at 3:05 am

    i am thinking i got another 4-5 hours left in my shoes that i walk in. once my boyfriend and his buddy fix my-Always-his-truck that i just took the door off by hitting a big rock because the brakes completely went out because of the slippery accident i had prior to that and was supposed to fix but never did. according to my boyfriend because i spend all our money or pills and dope, not that he is mr angel, crank and pot smoking asshole. i cant even go home because cops are looking for him, not me. now i am sitting in a middle of nowhere waiting to be ableto drive to a shitty camp ground to not be able to take a shower and of cause i got no dope to numb myself i am looking forward to an hour and a half ride back listing to him how much of a piece of shit i am and then once we get to the shitty trailer i am gonna shove as much rat poison in my mouth as i can andgo to sleep. see yas all. good luck u all . i am goingto see my daddy eho recently passed. i will miss my mom

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:12 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk xxx

      • broken

        April 24, 2015 at 1:32 am

        Let’s talk adam

    • Eric Moon

      April 29, 2015 at 7:05 am

      Your a dumb bitch, you should make it hurt more than that.

      • Eric Moon

        April 29, 2015 at 7:06 am

        Forget about just fixing your retarded life, just kill yourself…what a dumbass

  22. ronnie johnson

    April 16, 2015 at 5:55 am

    i miss my mom an my dad in 20 years old i jus want to know the quickest way out of the bullshit i dont own a gun any help please

    • Adam

      April 16, 2015 at 9:09 pm

      please please please don’t do it it’s not worth it and I’m here if you wanna talk

    • queso

      April 17, 2015 at 2:04 am

      Sit in your car in your garage while the car is running for about 15 to 20 minutes. You’ll fall asleep and never wake up. Carbon monoxide will take you out. I do not support your suicide. If you’ve absolutely had enough or feel homicidal thats the easiest way I can think of to go out without causing yourself extensive pain or to anyone else. I do not support you doing this!!! Please come to a suicide party.

      • Guest

        April 20, 2015 at 1:24 am

        I want in on your suicide party.

        • queso

          April 20, 2015 at 2:21 pm

          I hate my life too. Even therapist will tell you “life isn’t for everyone”. Its true. Lets organize the suicide party.

          • Junior

            April 23, 2015 at 12:45 am

            you need a new therapist is they are telling you life isn’t for everyone. c’mon this person on speed? lol.

          • queso

            April 25, 2015 at 4:41 am

            @junior I appreciate the kind words. Although I do not think there is a better input than suicidal outlets at this point…. I would rather bring suicidal people together and destroy our emptiness together as a whole.

          • Junior

            April 23, 2015 at 12:59 am

            queso, you are so young looking. there has to be some ways to make your life better. do you have anybody in your life that is supportive to you? sometimes it’s hard, especially if you don’t have a parent to rely on. then you have to do everything yourself which sucks. tell me the stuff you want to change/fix in your life. let’s see if we can come up with a better plan?

        • Junior

          April 23, 2015 at 12:51 am

          Guest, you are so young! You said you are 20? omg, you have so much of your life ahead of you to work things out & be happy. When I was 17 I was very unhappy & cut my wrists to ease my pain (no hospital visits b/c nobody knew). I was so mad at everyone & the world & felt nobody cared. then in the same year I took a lot of pills. I ended up being ok but I look back now & think, thank god no final results came from that. I know you miss your parents but you need to have faith that they want to see you though to happiness. You must know in your heart of hearts they do not want you to end your life.

          • kev

            April 24, 2015 at 12:09 pm

            I got told that when I was 17 I’m now 28 and im now sat here thinking about doing myself in because Fuck all changes

      • Guess'd

        May 5, 2015 at 7:22 pm

        That’s a bad way to go- most new cars have CO (CO2) monitors- so the car shuts off& you wake up with a horrid headache& vomit everywhere.

  23. Guest

    April 20, 2015 at 1:13 am

    I have completely destroyed my life. I’ve lost anything and everything I’ve ever had. No one cares about me or loves me. Death would be a relief. I need to find an easy way out because I can’t take this anymore. Please tell me a painless way to die

  24. Guest

    April 20, 2015 at 1:35 am

    No one would even notice or care if i left i just wanna go its easier then crying every night

    • Shane Walker

      April 20, 2015 at 9:01 am

      I agree

      • Sara Bennett

        April 27, 2015 at 7:09 am

        She needs help she loved u

    • Sara Bennett

      April 27, 2015 at 7:08 am

      I would

      • Louise Naylor

        May 5, 2015 at 3:22 pm

        That was a very sweet response to ‘guest’ Sara, especially considering you are in a place of pain your self judging by your other comments.

        You are clearly a caring, kind and deeply sensitive person and you look young. Please reach out for some help before you get suicidal, there are more people like you (and I) than can be imagined and those who can not only feel, but empathize with those in pain are of great value.

        I hope you find some peace and light.

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:08 pm

      Can I have your brain before you go? c:

    • Louise Naylor

      May 5, 2015 at 3:13 pm

      Oh darling, there are people out there who can help you, reach out.

      I’ve spent years where you are, I’m never going to be 100%, but you can feel better, you can turn or be turned around in so many ways.

      You are suffering because you are a sensitive soul, not some blood crazed shark, sensitive souls are easily loved, I wish I could give you a hug and I only read one line from you.

      You feel bleak now, but I promise you, it can be different.

      • chris

        May 13, 2015 at 5:27 pm

        jusb live your life yull be looking crazy if the other side is not what you expected

    • chris t.

      May 29, 2015 at 9:14 pm

      I understand the point of bickering about it either get busy livin or get busy dieing dont sit there and cry about it wh dont at good does that do besides condition you to be a winey baby who cant handle anything at all. Show some character and man the f. Up make a move the ball is in ur court people

  25. Shane Walker

    April 20, 2015 at 9:01 am

    I want to go now. ive had enough of this world

    • Holly

      April 20, 2015 at 7:17 pm

      me too

      • Sara Bennett

        April 27, 2015 at 7:07 am

        No live

        • Will Hike

          May 9, 2015 at 8:47 am

          take are places and you see we have nothing going for us, so why fucking suffer the rest of our lives??

          • beth

            June 5, 2015 at 12:59 am

            Your suffering can be eliminated by a change in perception. If you are mentally ill, please seek help from a qualified professional. Those left behind, like me… my son took his life when he was 29. It’s been 9 months and 10 days, it is devastating. It changes our lives beyond your comprehension. But I do understand your statement. And it does give me insight into where my son was. For that, I thank you. But I also see from all perspectives.. the pain left behind for your family, your children to bear their entire lives is just incomprehensible to me. your parents, your siblings, your grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends, we carry the pain you left behind until we die. It never ends, we never get over it, it doesn’t go away and doesn’t get easier. My heart feels dead.. I have 5 children. I’ll never be the same mom to any of them because I lost that one, that very special one. And I live in fear every day that they will repeat what he did… your pain, you can get help! I’ll help you! Never, never give up on this life until you’re taken out of it, and not by your hands… In Love, in Hope….

          • Tom

            June 5, 2015 at 11:52 pm

            thanks Beth you made me think of the ones i would hurt and i am sorry for your loss

          • Lite

            June 10, 2015 at 2:22 am

            Sorry, beth i understand u as a mother. Plz forgive him . I understand him it’s extremely hard to be feeling strong negative feelings. Some of us r too sensitive to emotions. He can’t move on if don’t let him go .he knows he will see u again. Ur love can free him .

          • Lite

            June 14, 2015 at 12:13 am

            Think of the ones left behind they feel ur pain in ways you cant imagine but trust me on this, they feel ur helplessness mixed with theirs and it is hard on everyone cherish them even more. l lost my favorite cat a few months ago and i celebrated her life wth a small shtine you can also plant a tree…btw im ltes btw im lites bff.tnx

          • Penut

            June 15, 2015 at 12:47 pm

            Yes me too

          • mojojojo

            June 15, 2015 at 6:21 pm

            you are selfish only thinking about the pain you feel what about him he was obviousley hurt more then you are or you probly would have followed suite

        • Scott Anthony Ogden

          May 22, 2015 at 3:42 pm

          You’re always giving people beacons of hope, but are you keeping strength for yourself?

    • Caylee Slover

      April 24, 2015 at 2:40 am

      i want to go too ive felt like killing myself for almost 10 years now. I don’t know why I havnt done it yet

      • Sara Bennett

        April 27, 2015 at 7:08 am

        Because u r important

        • james

          June 2, 2015 at 8:25 am

          no he is not

      • DK

        April 30, 2015 at 3:27 pm

        becoz u r scared

      • Rochelle Lopez

        June 2, 2015 at 10:57 pm

        Same here

    • Natashah Wood

      April 26, 2015 at 6:48 pm

      i agree shane i feel the same

      • ashley

        June 8, 2015 at 7:28 am

        I want to die also

    • Sara Bennett

      April 27, 2015 at 7:06 am

      God loves you!

      • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

        April 30, 2015 at 12:07 pm

        The possibility for a god who made a *religion* is low. Like low low. Like 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000%

      • TakeA Stand

        May 1, 2015 at 8:52 pm

        It’s not about God.

      • letsstopthespin

        May 14, 2015 at 8:02 am

        Sorry, but all religion is a myth, used to control people. There is a reason why it’s referred to as a belief or a faith; it’s not a fact.

      • abhinay

        June 2, 2015 at 5:27 pm

        There is no such entity….

        • Lite

          June 10, 2015 at 2:41 am

          No i can tell u there’s a entity. I don’t call it god but the source who is connected to everyone but unfortunately it’s our journey n experiments so he doesn’t interrupt always. I felt him. There’s also angels

      • omyr

        June 3, 2015 at 8:45 am

        god? there is no god.

      • Lite

        June 10, 2015 at 2:38 am

        Why he can’t stop my pain. I wan to be with him this isn’t my home.

    • Shawn Powell

      May 3, 2015 at 11:13 pm

      I couldn’t agree more.

    • ks

      May 4, 2015 at 10:52 pm

      I am so fed up of life too…

    • Louise Naylor

      May 5, 2015 at 3:05 pm

      Shit Shane, I don’t know why you feel like that, I just know the feeling, it’s been with me since childhood for various reasons beyond my control. I’m surviving though. I’ve got to 50 something and all I can tell you is life throws up new pain and joy and it’s worth living for.

      If you can learn to separate the two so that the fucked up stuff can be separated from the good, then even occasional good moods are worth living for.

      I don’t know your story, but no one gets to your place without history and sensitivity. This world is too savage for sensitive souls and that’s no ones fault. You can’t change the past and the future is unknowable, if you can grasp living in the moment you open up a whole new dimension and a moment in this space is bliss worth living for.

      My life has been a shit monsoon, much was my fault, much was not. In those moments when I leave that and my fear of the future behind, I know peace and joy. It took me a lifetime to learn this.

      Practically CBT might help, or listening to Eckhart Tolle.

      I wish you well fellow traveller.

      • Lite

        June 10, 2015 at 2:36 am

        I like ur words, I’m 33 now i also remember feeling like this forever. Is it because u r sensitive. ? Did u eventually learn how to hope? I love ektertolle. How does he help? Plz reach me anyone who feels like me through my email …featherhills@hotmail.ca

    • Vsean Em

      May 5, 2015 at 7:55 pm

      me too…. i m nt able to handle my hardships..
      just die….n ease my pain.

    • autumn

      May 15, 2015 at 12:12 am

      me too man

      • Shayne

        June 4, 2015 at 8:27 pm

        I agree. I think this life is like a school of sorts, we are all here to learn and GROW and that can be painful.

    • Louis

      May 25, 2015 at 9:17 am

      true even I want to go. Really fed up!

      • Kitty

        June 8, 2015 at 3:55 am

        Same here I want my life to end now. I just want to kill myself now. I hate life. Im a worthless piece of shit. I deserve to feel all the pain. I’m guna die alone. I’m sick of the fake smiles on my face. I regret every “I love u”…

        • Louis

          June 8, 2015 at 6:54 am

          Can’t believe I said this 14 days back and things have reversed and now I’m happy! Life is a tragedy when we see in a close up but a comedy in long shot.

          • DumbassNigga

            June 11, 2015 at 6:39 pm

            I don’t have 14 days

        • Lite

          June 10, 2015 at 2:27 am

          Kitty,my dear feel u.sorry. i think its others who r not worthy of u . I know about the fake smile. I feel like that wen i have to go through another day. This planet n this time,people r too insensitive, selfish.

    • anonymous

      June 3, 2015 at 12:26 am

      I feel the same every day is agony… i have no purpose nobody loves me or cares i hate myself.. my gf of 3 years turned i found out is a hooker… my two best friends died from a drunk driver and ive never got over it.. people have never been there for me… i wanna hang myself tonight… im waiting for someone to come.to my house and stop me but if nobody does i wanna do it..may God have mercy on my soul

      • zarif

        June 4, 2015 at 8:44 pm

        what happened, are you still alive.

    • Shayne

      June 4, 2015 at 8:37 pm

      Hey Shane, I think about fucking ending it all every day. I don’t because, 1. fear, – I don’t know what’s on the other side. 2. Hope, I really believe if I pull my finger out of my arse, I can Improve things. 3. I do have some friends, and I like spend time with them. 4. and maybe the most importantly I hang around for the upcoming Justice League Movie :) You got to find a reason!

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 2:04 am

      R u ok now? I’m feeling the same

    • scott

      June 10, 2015 at 1:14 pm

      Shane i know my life sucks too i have a plan in place to it i have wanted to do it for awile .and i been ready to do it .I’am not afraid to do it i’am going to tell no body where i’am going to do it i’am just going to it and then my life will be over. Which is what i want any way

    • Traasp

      June 12, 2015 at 10:16 am

      I just don’t want to live here. Have had enough problems in life. Even when I perform well, people just push me down. Also, sometimes I feel that I didn’t start my life the right way. That opportunity was taken away from me. I’ve hurt my loved ones. Life has hurt me in return. And in such measure that I just don’t want to exist any more. But then there is also the pain that my death will bring to the people around me. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I don’t want it to be my last act in this tragedy I play. I wish I was never born. Hope I can find a way to end this right now. I’m in pain.

      • Bob VK

        June 14, 2015 at 2:23 am

        Hi…
        that’s pretty much a lot of my internal dialogue…
        I’m sure I was born defective, yet lots of people have loved me…
        I’ve systematically pushed them all away, or hurt them, self-loathing is a terrible base to build a plastic false life on- I fooled a lot of people that I was ok, and a happy person (Ironically I was drawn to clowning… and was quite good with the randomness of humour, that kids so love..) but most of I sober time was spent thinking/ researching a painless way out, then remembering that there will be an amazing mess left behind to mop up, then bounce back to- ‘could there be hope?! ‘, to- I have fucked up relationships with my closest ones irreparably, to- a couple of drinks to kill this horrid pain, and around and around until I grab my head and scream out loud that I hate my brain soo much- like some lunatic.- then other thoughts will pour in like’ fucking grow up and take responsibility you hopeless dick’, starting that whole selfish cycle over again with the underlying sensation that if I could literally pull a plug, I would, but I’m scared that that self sabotaging demon part of me will fuck up my suicide attempt enough to leave me a vegetable for the next agonising 40 years,…. this, my dear people is the insanity,
        years of counselling and medication cannot fix a broken mind, Only I can, yet haven’t managed to, …and I’m tired, scared, on the constant verge of tears, with random extraordinary pangs of guilt that literally stop you in your tracks out of nowhere, sting as if they were intense physical pain -without actually being physical- (quite bizarre) and the only relief is riding it out, until the next time your mind chooses to hurl another torture salvo at itself. fuck… enough already

  26. prisca

    April 20, 2015 at 2:56 pm

    I am a very un happy girl who hates her life so very much n its all becuz of her stupid 3 sisters who her mean slefish ungrateful stupid n dumb I help dem in so many ways n all dey to is to be mean to u n I scarifice my entire life to dem all dey do is to be fuck ass my entire family r fucked ass n am sick n tired so plsss tell how to kill myslef trust me dey wont miss me wen am dead

    • Eric Moon

      April 29, 2015 at 7:02 am

      Definitely wont miss those grammar errors “dem”?? “dey”?? DA FUQ is wrong with u?? If you cant even spell suicide u havent lived enough. Go back to school kid

      • Jason Sims

        April 29, 2015 at 2:00 pm

        That’s fucked up ! People on here are suffering And you pretty much encouraged her to die. I hope you experience the pain she is feeling ! Pain demands to be felt and YOU will feel it. But i also hope that you are strong enough to overcome the pain and be the best you can be. Push boundaries with yourself BE happy, people love and care for us all. i am also experiencing this pain. I have a skin condition that will never go away, i’m incapable of carrying out a conversation, anxiety. No one really cares about me. I’m in love with a girl that may not even like me and it hurts me even more because her father is not around because his gf wont let him see her, and i know shes in pain. It pisses me off, every child needs both of their parents. My parents divorced too and i swear i would never leave my child behind. I’m only 17 and i don’t know if i can make it but i will try to strive for happiness.

        • Eric Moon

          April 29, 2015 at 4:47 pm

          Trust me ive felt MORE than my share of pain, theres a very good reason I dont talk to my family and had to rebuild with no help from websites like this. . This girls head isnt even in the right place if shes still trying to sound all “thug” on a suicide post.. she needs to be in school. Real people with real problems dont post shit like that for attention. Nuff said.

  27. Sidd Siddiqui

    April 22, 2015 at 3:31 am

    I also dont wann to live any more

    I am dying daily and daily…
    Pls tell me how i can die while i
    sleep…
    Can a dose of rat kill can kill me

    • Guess'd

      May 7, 2015 at 9:04 pm

      No. Rat poison is a gruesome death. Try benzos mixed with an opiate. A lot of them. Sleep on ur back& make sure no one will bother you for at least 30 hours. If possible leave a note on ur bedroom door to call 911 so ur loved ones (or whomever) does not see an unpleasant scene. And just FYI, my general rule is that if u want to kill urself, u must wait 24 hours, u must sleep on it. If ur still ret, pills are cheapest& relatively reliable

  28. David James Cowan

    April 22, 2015 at 11:55 am

    ive lost my house,my girlfriend, nothing makes me happy anymore. im only 22 my daughter could give a shit about me, but im just too scared to end it and i just dont know what to do anymore, ive started starving myself because either al starve to death or the pain will get to much and ill finally be able to do it myself, whats the point in life when u hate yourself and youv lost everything

    • broken

      April 24, 2015 at 1:32 am

      I know how u feel. I’m trying to find the best way out

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:24 pm

      Lel get rekt :3
      fgt!

      Any yeah I think you need some time in a room alone and think properly before doing anything futile.

      • TakeA Stand

        May 1, 2015 at 9:28 pm

        Why are you on this discussion. You’re rude and can’t speak (type) plain English. You sound pretty uneducated so telling others what to do is a little contradicting.

  29. Junior

    April 23, 2015 at 12:11 am

    Most people who have suicidal thoughts are bi-polar or have some mental health issues that can be treated. Talk to a professional to seek help.

    • mark

      April 24, 2015 at 6:15 am

      people have many reason to not want to live. When you feel un loved or un wanted and everyone from your wife and kids treat u like shit and have no respect what pount is there in living on.

  30. Junior

    April 23, 2015 at 12:38 am

    I’ve lost 2 people to suicide. 1 friend b/c he was bi-polar & went un-diagnosed & my aunt b/c she was severely depressed & hitting the bottle b/c she was in a physically/verbally abusive marriage w/kids. I will tell you when I lost my friend, there was NOTHING worse than having his mom cry uncontrollably in my arms, asking why? what could she have done? how could she lose her son? I will be honest, I get very depressed, I have gotten to the point I’m a hermit. I’ve just gotten out of an abusive relationship (verbal not physical) b/c I didn’t care enough about myself. Anytime I get to that dark place, I always think of my friend’s mom & how I could NEVER do that to my family. as much drama we have-like anyone’s family, the pain never goes away. His whole family 20 yrs now later, is still not right by him not being there. It’s almost like the life was truly sucked out of them as well & they have tried to exist & continue all these years but being robbed of that true happiness b/c he is gone. You have to take baby steps.
    #1 seek help-go talk to a therapist-someone you like to talk to. (i’ve gone & it’s a weight off my shoulders)
    #2-see if being on meds is for you. Even if just temporarily. (I’ve tried this as well lol) however, the kind I was on was spacing me out a bit so I stopped.
    #3-write a list of the stuff you’d wish you could change.
    #4-come up with a plan! tackle 1 thing at a time.
    (i’m telling you, I did this & I’m on a high now-natural of course. lol) I HATED where I lived. obnoxious loud neighbors, drugs, high crime, you name it, it was all around me. I made a plan & stuck to it, to get the hell out. I worried at first, o, what about his, or that, should I wait for this or that. then I said, the hell with it, worry about the rest of the crap later, just get out). tackle 1 thing at a time. I moved & wondering what took me so long. next up for me, I have no real friends to go out with. ok-I googled how to fix this. I know, I’m pathetic. I have people I’m friends with but nobody single. everyone is married w/kids except me, involved in their own lives. I feel like a loser most of the time. I joined a meetup group. people in my area looking to meet new people. there are TONS of them. google it for your area & they have them for everything.
    #5 surround yourself w/positive people!!!! Now, my older sister is a good egg but everytime I talk to her it’s negative, negative, negative. I have learned shorter convo’s w/her or sometimes less. Some things you won’t be able to change but come up w/a plan.
    #6 Remember that everything has to pass eventually. Everything can’t always remain bad in your life. If your family sucks, save up $$$ to move out. Come up w/a plan.
    I’ve basically been self helping myself b/c you know what, at the end of the day we’re all worth it!! Don’t allow ANYBODY to make you feel you should end it. You need to give yourself a quick kick in the ass & say, what can I do to make shit better b/c i’m tired of it. :)

  31. Kelsey Zawacki

    April 24, 2015 at 12:00 pm

    My mom calls me names all the time fat ugly stupid I have seizures in my sleep I was always thinking about just taking a lot of pills to finally end it I am sick of being called names she promised me she would never treat me like how her mom treated her and now she is and I can’t take it any longer

    • Raul

      April 24, 2015 at 1:17 pm

      Hey, just remember one thing: you’re important. You matter. These frustations are really hard to go through, but I know you’re strong. Stronger than you can imagine. You’re capable of going through it, and much more. I hope you return to this page and read this. I’m going through a lot these last years, and… yea. I may know what you’re feeling and thinking (that’s what led me to this page, I think)

      • Sara Bennett

        April 27, 2015 at 7:10 am

        Thank you

    • Sara Bennett

      April 27, 2015 at 7:09 am

      She needs help she loves u

    • hart

      May 1, 2015 at 1:35 am

      God bless to all of you hope thing get for you. Iv had enough split up with my partner now the 1 thing she said she never do. She is doing it trying to make me have set times and set amount of hours to see my little boy. I can’t do it I had him today and the hardest thing iv ever had to do was take him back home then walk away from him. I can’t handle that more so coz he was screaming daddy daddy I want to stay with daddy. I love you son and always will do but ur mum is going to make it as hard as possible for me to have u. I’ll be watching over u lots of love dad bye xx

      • Kelsey Zawacki

        May 1, 2015 at 3:09 am

        I’m only 17

        • hart

          May 1, 2015 at 3:22 am

          Can u not get a place in a hostel wot town do you live in hun

        • hart

          May 2, 2015 at 12:29 am

          Kelsey are you ok you haven’t replied. You mean alot to us all in here. Message back plz

    • hart

      May 1, 2015 at 10:58 pm

      Hun I’m going through alot of shit right now. Iv tried to kill myself by eating tablets and its not worked. Iv got an x partner that is suffering with bad depression. Iv tried to help her for 5years but she’s only interested in making it out like iv done it. (to her friends and family) infront of any one else she makes it like I’m the best dad in the world.then come out with your not seeing your kids anymore

    • scott

      June 10, 2015 at 1:17 pm

      Ihate my famliy i get shit on and ridiculed so what the fuck i';am ready to go

  32. Joshua scofield

    April 24, 2015 at 2:48 pm

    The answer is simple, just don’t do it. There are ways people can help you battle depression and fight it. Think about the ones who DO care about you, what will they think when you kill yourself. Even though you may want to, you shouldn’t. there are always people that can help you. No matter how bad it may seem. There will always be someone who loves and cares about you. Don’t be selfish and take yourself away from them. I know it sounds cliche and all but I really mean what I just said.

    -Love,
    Josh <333

    • TakeA Stand

      May 1, 2015 at 9:26 pm

      And what if you literally have no one? Then what?

  33. мариам чарун

    April 25, 2015 at 12:44 am

    the easy way to die is open console menu by typing “~” from keyboad and type “kill”,thanks me later :3

    • Eric Moon

      April 29, 2015 at 6:59 am

      Lmao u forgot to tell them to click on what they want to kill first

  34. Airelle Bragg

    April 25, 2015 at 7:56 pm

    I’d like to relocate my soul… I hate this realm..

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:21 pm

      There is no proof of souls or realms. It’s just your imagination so far of what people have told you.

      • Lite

        June 10, 2015 at 3:01 am

        No,i know how i felt.i know there’s more than wat ur eyes can see

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:00 am

      I feel absolutely same

  35. Tiegan

    April 25, 2015 at 8:20 pm

    The world we live in now is more terrifying and uneasy to survive in. I’m only 17 and I’ve been through a lot which no teenager or any body should ever have to go through in their life time. I was raised to be strong and brave so showing my feelings out in public to people was never an option for me. It’s hard to go through life knowing that my own family thinks of me as the devil’s child. When I was younger I use to have so much rage because I hated my family and because they couldn’t handle me they wished me dead and so I tried to fulfil their wish by running in front of any transport that moved such as, trains, cars, bikes and buses but they always stopped in time.

    As of now that I’m a teen I have more problems then ever like the fact that I cough up blood all the time and no doctor in history could/can ever find out why. I get poked with needles, X-rays and tests 24/7 which is nothing but a nuisance. Half the time because I’m underage I don’t get a say in what happens to my body because of my parents, so to be honest I just want to die and be done with it all, that way I finally get peace. I not long ago tried to commit suicide by holding my breath, cutting myself, drowning myself, and starving to death but I just couldn’t go through with it all because it still caused me more pain. If it’s not now that I don’t die It will be later, either way the reason to me coughing up blood will probably kill me.

    People say it will be alright, as if they can predict or see the future, but no one knows what the future holds so saying “it will be alright” only brings false hope. The worse thing I hate to hear is that, because there is nothing quite as worse then giving someone false hope, as well as pity. Some people are just not meant for this world and that’s fine as long as they accept that and find some peace with it. To be brutally honest I accepted that I was never meant for this world a long time ago and I look forward to the day that I meet my end, maybe one day I’ll meet my creator on the other side who ever it should be (the devil or god) if they exist that is.
    I no longer care if I live or die I just live everyday trying to face my problems and whatever happens, I guess happens for a reason. We all have to die some time so whether it’s tomorrow or 40 years from now it’s probably not going to get any easier for those who are not ready to die. People die all the time even when they are loved. Sometimes support and having loved ones just isn’t enough for some people.

    • Jane

      April 26, 2015 at 7:20 am

      Your absolutely right about where people say everything will be alright, life goes on and you will be fine. I too hate when people say that, but I guess people say that so you don’t do anything stupid and maybe because they care. I’m sorry to hear how you cough up blood, I can’t imagine how you must be feeling about that but I’m sure there is an answer out there for you as to why that is happening to you, don’t give up on hope just yet. You say you are strong and brave so keep fighting, don’t give up on life, things may get better in time if you just work towards making it better for yourself.
      I have been through some pain in my life and I had thought about it once or twice to kill myself so that I could be free from the pain that I was suffering from, but I went out to seek help from doctors and just knowing I was being heard made me feel a little better about myself. I came to respecting myself and taking one step at a time towards life. Everyday it’s a struggle, but that’s what life is about. It’s about over coming the obstacles that get thrown at you in life and to take charge of how you want to live your life.
      Sounds to me you are a doer instead of a planner. You say you don’t care about living or dying but I’m sure others do so all I can say to you is that you don’t give up on life just yet and just remember you are not alone. If you can’t find help or open up about yourself then express your feelings on paper or like this so that others can help and communicate with you through their stories.
      – Jane :]

  36. Hamza R Saiyed

    April 25, 2015 at 10:16 pm

  37. Guest

    April 25, 2015 at 10:42 pm

    is rat poison a good way to go?

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:17 pm

      Yeah sure if you want a very fucking painful death, which really isn’t worth it. The moment you do you’re gonna be like “WTF WAS I THINKING?!@!”

  38. Robert Brito

    April 25, 2015 at 10:43 pm

    How can i do this quickly, no pain?
    Guns not allowed, got no money for that

    • Sara Bennett

      April 27, 2015 at 7:12 am

      Pray God will give u peace

      • Beforeimgonee

        April 29, 2015 at 7:23 pm

        Sara i was really upset about something and killing myself was my answer and it still is but i was searching for painless deaths and yours comments came up and i saw the way you were trying to cheer people up. I really want to talk to you please make me feel better

  39. Matthew Stoner Tavani

    April 26, 2015 at 7:13 am

    I have no family. It broke up 13 yrs ago…. ive been living with lies….. im on ssi and have depression issues along with restraining order from my family im alone and scared i just stopped caring 13 yrs ago… i started smoking cigs at age 9 then at age 13 i started smoking marijuana and it helps a lil to forget the pain but when cops bring up my ex family i fall apart…. wanting to kill myself in front of them to show them how much i am hurting…. i have a pedophile for a foster father and a whore for a foster mother… i never met my birth father and i was told he killed a man but idk if it was tru or not…. i met my birth mom a few times but it felt awkward so i left…. now i am no longer allowed at my old house…. i am alone and very very scared…. i am 23 and have hard times remembering shit…. ik im gonna b scarred for life but oh well.., i might as well kill myself bcuz my foster parents killed me soooo long ago.

  40. Natashah Wood

    April 26, 2015 at 6:44 pm

    my brother told me that there is nothing for me here i am 8

  41. Natashah Wood

    April 26, 2015 at 6:48 pm

    i feel like crap my mom does not even care about what my little brother says to me

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:16 pm

      Did he call you a skrub coz u got noscoped?

    • Scott Anthony Ogden

      May 22, 2015 at 3:44 pm

      People who say that family are the ones that you can always rely on are so often wrong… You need to know that there are people here that know exactly what it’s like and what really should happen is people like that need to come together and become close and save one another…

  42. Ray

    April 27, 2015 at 3:59 am

    I’m 47 and have split with my partner of 16 years about a year ago. She has taken my children from me, she made me homeless and I feel like she absolutely destroyed me. I’ve been having a really hard time coping with being unable to see my children. I’ve been feeling like I’ve lost all my friends. I’m finding it difficult to find reasons to stay.

    • Sara Bennett

      April 27, 2015 at 7:11 am

      Your kids need you!

      • Ray

        April 27, 2015 at 2:41 pm

        Thank you Sara. I know that at some point all will possibly come good,(this isn’t the first time I’ve faced adversity). Even with that said having been rejected and cut off from everyone I love and care about the nasty little thoughts are sneaking in.
        Personally I don’t think I’d actually do anything to harm myself but it is rather disconcerting to suddenly find yourself having thoughts of killing yourself. I reckon it’s a self defence mechanism of mine to try and stop me from going off and doing anything rash towards the mother of my children. Perhaps I should have been looking for ways of getting away with murder rather than ways of ending myself.

      • Nicole Mitchell

        April 27, 2015 at 3:32 pm

        May God bless you always Sara Bennett for trying so hard to show love to others. Your simple act of kindness has inspired me to stop looking for ways to die and give this shitty ass life of mine one more day, one more chance. Please don’t ever stop showing love to people.

      • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

        April 30, 2015 at 12:30 pm

        Your mother need you back in reality.

      • anonomouys

        May 1, 2015 at 12:33 am

        fuck sara

        • TakeA Stand

          May 1, 2015 at 9:19 pm

          Seriously. Bible Thumper. God God God. Please. God is dead sweetheart. If he was real, then this word wouldn’t be what it is. Spare me the “I’ll pray for you”. Spare me the bullshit all you God loving brainwashed fools say.

    • TakeA Stand

      May 1, 2015 at 9:23 pm

      Obviously Sara lives in a bubble. Kids grow apart from their families. Parents die and families are torn. Real life happens. And no God swoops down to save the day. I feel your pain, and I have a 2 year old daughter. I’m sitting here reading this and she comes up to me and hugs me and says “I love you” and squishes my face and says “i keep you”, as tears fall as they may.

      • Another Perspective

        May 2, 2015 at 3:54 pm

        I think Sara is just trying to share a purpose in her life with people she sees are hopeless. A faith in God is frustrating because, like you said, he isn’t our vending machine… he doesn’t fix all the shittiness in the world, and that fuckin sucks. But if you can understand why people believe in God maybe that will take away whatever anger you are conveying currently. People believe in God because the unending love they feel He gives. When you’re feeling shitty, and hopeless, and lost, and (it seems) nobody cares about you, God can be that support. He can love when no one else does, he can comfort when you have nobody to hold. And believe me, I get your frustration; but try not to condemn another for believing in something that gets them through each day, that gives them purpose, or for trying to share that sense of peace with others. To each their own…

  43. Abnormal Humo

    April 27, 2015 at 11:40 pm

    i wanna rest in peace, tired of this restless life. i reckon, this frekn weird pain will disappear forever. cant wait till i lie breathless, happy and quiet.

  44. unknown

    April 28, 2015 at 3:31 am

    Several years ago I popped many pills and someone close found me breathless the doctors pumped my stomach and and landed in an institute for awhile, and a year before that I hung myself and my brother that has passed on also of suicide found me hanging and landed in an institute, I also got so high and drunk one time and drove my vehicle in a ditch. I have had many more incidents after but 5 years ago I realized why god still had me here see I found someone that told me she loved me but she wouldn’t of said if I didn’t tell her first funny huh! See that is when I realized I couldn’t love anybody unless I loved myself first unless I decided to make my change and when I got the courage to tell her I realized what I was missing since then we have had three children and gotten married we all have problems some worse than others but that should not bring us down but make us stronger……..what helped me was saying 2 words I AM and then something positive….I AM LOVE, I AM HAPPY, I AM GREAT, I AM PEACE, I AM POSITIVE These are things that helped me I hope it helps who ever reads this or find something u enjoy and make it a positive emotion….and most of all do NOT be afraid to say hi to someone u don’t know because that someone might be you life changer god bless u all and be safe……….

    • Ray

      April 28, 2015 at 3:23 pm

      My mantra is I’m better than this and I’m better than them. I sort of forgot it for a little while but have just started saying it to myself again in the last week, it helps.

  45. tracy

    April 28, 2015 at 7:59 am

    I wish that there was an easy way to die what would cause no pain and be fast with no blood either I’m fucking done please help me do this with no pain.

    • David Shaw

      June 3, 2015 at 7:46 pm

      I’m getting so bad I’ve been hert so bad but reading wot some ppl r going though makes me think just having some 1 who will listion may help

  46. tracy

    April 28, 2015 at 8:04 am

    Nobody out there just like my life. Yes I’ve attempted many times but now it’s time to go

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:29 pm

      Get NOsc0p3d!

  47. Courtneyy Cadmann

    April 28, 2015 at 10:34 am

    I wanna die,

  48. Courtneyy Cadmann

    April 28, 2015 at 10:37 am

    I wanna be die

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:26 pm

      Y r u such a fgt?

      • Courtneyy Cadmann

        April 30, 2015 at 7:25 pm

        What yu mean?

    • DK

      April 30, 2015 at 3:33 pm

      mistakes hpns by peoples dat dosent means u wil sucide just b stil b strong n giv tym som tym ervything wil b fine

  49. nunu

    April 28, 2015 at 1:26 pm

    i just wanna go now im going through to much right now im gonna explode this pain will never pass i just wanna go now every day i cry im depressed as hell

    • DK

      April 30, 2015 at 3:32 pm

      best way wen u r sad cry n go to slep its da best way to cure ur sadnes

  50. Regan Hornsey

    April 28, 2015 at 8:50 pm

    Could bleach kill me? Because i will do it, i hate my life so much

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:15 pm

      You will most likely have your stomach destroyed and vomit all the bleach out if you are physically an adult. And yeah killing yourself is totally gonna help huh?…

  51. Eric Moon

    April 29, 2015 at 2:31 am

    This world is not what it should be. Human beings have made a mess with this beautiful gift we were given and that is the only reason I feel alien and wish I was somewhere else. But killing yourself is just a cheap way out. Theres no excuse no matter what somebody has it worse than you so tuck in that lip and get your shitty life together. I came up from the VERY BOTTOM so its really hard for me to have sympathy for people and their “problems” suck it up and fix it dont kill yourself moron.

  52. Pilo Alameda Salvadora

    April 29, 2015 at 10:14 am

    Well, I’m in a complicated relationship right now. Whatever I do, I just cant seem to make good things to her. Whenever we have conflicts, I cant remove my urge to just kill myself in front of her. I just want this life to end. But the thing I can’t do is to leave the blame on her. I always think about her situation if I would commit suicide because of her. She will be hated and looked down. I can’t do that to her. But if she leaves me, I don’t know what will I do. I’m trying my best to fix this, But i just hurt her too much. I’m just a person who don’t deserve to live. I hurt the one I love the most. I don’t want to commit suicide, I just want it to end now.

    • MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

      April 30, 2015 at 12:11 pm

      Here is a good idea how about pre think a choice and think 10 steps ahead for every decision you make?

  53. garman68

    April 30, 2015 at 2:06 am

    I am 46, have lived with depression ally life and just can’t fight it any more. Too many ups and downs and am so tired of knowing that I can’t have one with out the other. Its a cruel and endless cycle and I want it to stop

  54. kyle..

    April 30, 2015 at 5:26 am

    I just keep fucking up over and over again hurting people to make some people happy but eventully end up hurting everybody.. once ive let everybody down I lose them all then have nothing left when everybody you love leaves theres almost no point in being here really want to go but il still hurt somepeople by dieing fuck I cant live for others but I dont want to live alone death just sometimes feels like the best answer

  55. MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

    April 30, 2015 at 12:03 pm

    Yeah, isn’t not living better than living? -.-

    I have a better idea how about damage the part in the frontal lobe which responds with emotion that way you won’t care as much about anything ever again :3

    I mean emotion is the issue right? Better than killing yourself! if a solution for the problem isn’t found….

    The way I see it. This seems similar to a game. If people fail or do something wrong every time they want to quit a lot like in real life (Death) It’s human nature. So I won’t blame you if you can’t resist it or don’t want to in general.
    If you are going to kill yourself don’t be selfish and think about everyone you know first. If you don’t find anything at least give the organs in your body to someone else who wants to live.

  56. MLG xXx_420n0scOp3r_xXx FaZe

    April 30, 2015 at 12:26 pm

    Dis kid stole me diemund on minecraft :’c
    i’m gonna kill myself now because like they mean anything

  57. Hugo Eduard

    April 30, 2015 at 2:24 pm

    I wont to die now

  58. DK

    April 30, 2015 at 3:36 pm

    by dieing u all wil hurt those peoples who loves u.if u r nt able to live fr urself den live fr dem its da best way to mak dem hapy n to urself fel gud

  59. Bullcrap

    April 30, 2015 at 7:40 pm

    “No live!” says the millionaire or the rich person who lives comfortably in the lap of luxury and suffers no financial problems. “Please don’t do it” says the banker who needs to profit from YOUR money. Why do you want to die they ask? Don’t you like being raped by the banks every day of your life? I just love their marketing ploys and advertisements that make you believe you have a good deal when their pocketing your money with interest. Don’t you like having your whole life controlled by others, your every move scrutinized with surveillance cameras and your communications monitored electronically? Don’t you like being just another spoke in the wheel? Don’t you like living your life in an apartment you don’t own, working your ass off while your boss who does a 10th of the effort your putting in lives the good life in a 2000 square foot house and then sells the company and pockets millions while you’re left to hang high and dry? Yes life is good, but not in this fucking society. It was good maybe hundreds or even thousands of years ago when people where free to roam the land without worrying about trespassing every fucking meter along the way.
    But yeah, life is good nonetheless as long as your are loved. If you have no love in this world, you’re fucked. With love, you can surmount anything, any abuser (which is almost every freaking business owner in this world), and you can concentrate on what matters, the object of your love. At least love yourself. Then know that God loved you first. Fuck em all, don’t let THEM drag you down and make you feel like shit. You are worth something, maybe not economically or in the eys of the mercedes driving crowd, but you are worth something in the eys of those who share your beliefs.

  60. PRINCESS♛

    April 30, 2015 at 7:47 pm

    considering suicide.. but don’t want it to be painful. I’m 16. and have nothing left to live for. any ideas?

    • David scriven

      June 8, 2015 at 12:07 pm

      Don’t do it I feel for you so much I’ve been through what your going through I’m 17 and I still feel like I want to kill myself

  61. Mathieu Audet

    May 1, 2015 at 1:51 am

    no reason to be alive anymore. day after day is getting only worst. thinking about it for long long time now and nothing hold me back and no one will even care

  62. Fought but lost

    May 2, 2015 at 11:58 am

    Am 40, no home, no food, no money, 2 kids. Should i go Alone or with my kids. am confused. what happens to them if i leave them behind. the world is a nasty place to be in. I could not manage myself in this nasty world… how will the 2 tiny tots? Dont ask where my wife is and dont ask if i have anyone to take care of the kids. simple answer is what i seek. should i take them with me?

    • Nick

      May 2, 2015 at 5:04 pm

      do not take them with you. they still have a whole life ahead of them and they have endless possibilities. I dont want to bring religion into this but pray a little and ill pray for you too. Good luck and God bless you. I only say this to be nice and dont know if you even believe in God so if you read this just take for what its worth and know someone does care.

  63. Life sucks

    May 2, 2015 at 2:47 pm

    Just turned 13 and now I feel that life is not important.my parent hate me and I have no friends so when I die nobody will even care if I died or not. Now gonna start drugs and try to kill myself from this worthless life I have. Btw smoking is actually ok and it doesn’t even matter because it’s fun and easy way to get into drugs.

  64. Andrew

    May 3, 2015 at 2:57 pm

    My Girlfriend has accused me with domestic violence that never happend, she suffers from mental health issues and has lied to anyone of any importants (social services, police) She has stopped me seeing my too boys, ruined a potential career as a social worker (as I am now deemed unsuitable to do my dream career of helping vunerable children and adults) and made my life hell all because she has been vindictive. I have served to tours of afganistan, worked hard as an adult to get to uni. I now have no job, family or prospects. please tell me why I shouldnt end my life if I havnt got a life to live. I have had a good 28 years now its time to clock out whilst I still have my dignity. thanks.

  65. joof fooj

    May 4, 2015 at 9:39 pm

    I searched what kind of pills can I take to kill myself and it brought me here but it doesn’t tell me squat about it wtf

  66. matt

    May 4, 2015 at 10:39 pm

    I’m having the thoughts of suicide, I was diagnosed with an uncurable disease (not AIDS) and the treatments that won’t cure me are very expensive. Why put others worrying about me when I’m sure they have their own issues.

  67. ks

    May 4, 2015 at 10:54 pm

    It is so unfair no one no matter how hard you work and how hard you try in this life in honesty and integrity people always think you as a liar and not serious they are so blinded about what is reality and what is real they live in a world they build only where they can survive. I pray each day for my life to end am a coward to take it and am so unhappy living in this ridiculous world…

  68. ks

    May 4, 2015 at 10:58 pm

    and.. for all the religious people who throws god at us… well get this I was once married to a Christian who beat me and verbally abuse me… he is now a deacon and he is also a doctor… amen you all are self righteous and you laugh at ppl like me because you are all feeling sorry for us… NO YOU ARE GLAD ITS NOT YOU, YOU ARE GLAD ITS NOT YOUR LIFE, you are just hypocrites and society is self righteous on the whole…

  69. crackgod

    May 5, 2015 at 1:55 am

    yeah I agree guys lets just fucking do it life is all Bullshit anyways I’m leaving today I don’t want to fell this suffering no more

  70. Guess'd

    May 5, 2015 at 7:17 pm

    So who is organizing this party? Can I get an invite?

  71. anutherGuy

    May 5, 2015 at 10:35 pm

    you fucks, only half of your minds are even capable of deciding between life and death for yourselves.Tell us why you’re in such a position so we can help you. If you can’t, maybe you’ll realize you’re not ready to leave. Mine wasn’t.

  72. anjali raj

    May 6, 2015 at 12:05 pm

    i have seen many thngs in lfe and now i cant take this anymore i want quit my life

    • Gaurav Sharma

      May 10, 2015 at 2:36 am

      I think we are in same boat. I am also fed up . cant take divorce as i have a daughter of 4 yrs and i have been cheated by my inlaws which i came 2 know after 6 yrs. Feels like dying. i thrash my self respect and go 2 them just 2 have a glance of my angel. Please help me the way 2 get rid of life.

  73. anjali raj

    May 6, 2015 at 12:07 pm

    my marrided life sucks i cant even take divorce i am little baby so i want quit help me friends

    • Will Hike

      May 9, 2015 at 8:53 am

      I’ve been married twice and I’m tired of life………..its over rated

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 2:56 am

      Can i help? How do u want me to help. Wat can i do

  74. Kelsey Zawacki

    May 6, 2015 at 6:51 pm

    Idk how much longer I can do this today my mom not only took her anger out on me she beat my sister and called her the n word I hate telling people about my problems but she never should of called her that it’s not her fault my sister already has depression and my mom makes it worse I would take my own life if it wasn’t for my sister

    • hart

      May 8, 2015 at 6:14 pm

      Hi hun I no how u feel I went through my life with my dad getting pissed then coming home and betting me and my brother.i no its hard babe but u got to hang in there for you and your sister. Your mum is a horrible person but u r still young ur got ur hole life ahead and some one like you can make a change

    • alea

      May 9, 2015 at 3:50 am

      Same with me I have those times when I think the whole worlds trying to kill me and i cry Every one crys. just know you are not alone and there. Are people who care about you and still want to lisene to your story’s

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 2:54 am

      It’s difficult i understand, i think u r brave

  75. Gaming Chick

    May 8, 2015 at 5:40 pm

    I need to die now!!! i can’t deal with this anymore!!! but i’m afraid of living and dieing

    • Will Hike

      May 9, 2015 at 8:52 am

      I’m 46 and past 14 yrs has been Hell, sorry a young person feels the way you do…………..but I need to stop my life I’ve been nothing but a let down to everyone, I haven’t seen my son in 8 years and he’s now 14. he is the only reason I had to live…………so i wish I’d have a heart attack in my sleep or someone would just shoot me like a horse and let me be in a field and lhe animals feed off me. That’s all I’m good for anymore. My wife left me two years ago and that was it………………………

  76. Will Hike

    May 9, 2015 at 8:45 am

    I’ve waited to die for over a decade now. If anyone is in Central Texas and wants to join me, email me at willhike4u@gmail.com. I’ve been nice caring, loving, supportive of so many people and I can’t even help myself anymore. I forgot how. I’m tired of the excuses to live. There are none!

  77. disqus_Fhzy7WKvtg

    May 10, 2015 at 1:03 am

    To feel pain, you are first made capable of enduring it? Go f# yourself
    kavya

  78. lady

    May 10, 2015 at 2:54 pm

    My husbands loves me a lot but dont want to keep relation with my parents and even out of his short temper nature he hurts my feelings but always blame me for any negative appens.
    What should I do????

    • R R Rudra Chowdary

      May 31, 2015 at 9:07 pm

      U r taking is right but keep u r husband in a chair and what is u r problem sir ask first please do this and take the next step and this is also Ower means u want or not u have any children think and be positive and don’t be negative ok na miss…..

  79. Toya Singletary

    May 10, 2015 at 10:13 pm

    I just wanna die so bad I feel worthless and I’m such a fuck up

  80. Cierra Farris

    May 11, 2015 at 2:36 am

    Just walk up to me and put a bullet through my brain. I can feel the peace now.

  81. mahi

    May 18, 2015 at 5:34 am

    i just got married a month before and i want to die i fed up from my life dnt know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…………..i dnt know the reson but i really dnt want to
    live or i want to escape

  82. anthony

    May 19, 2015 at 5:10 am

    I hate this world it is corrupted and uncaring. I am disabled army veteran i have not seen my children for 2 years because I have been subject to complete discrimination in court. I love my children very much but 91% of fathers are subject to unfair treatment in family courts google it you will find out this is a fact. I cannot afford £250 an hour for a lawyer and i am not entitled to legal aid, so basically I am screwed. I have no support from anyone and my mother abused me for many years and she does not care or want to speak about her action my elder brother was taken into care when i was young for the same reason. I cry most days and have panic attacks and wish i was dead

  83. hasti

    May 19, 2015 at 9:09 am

    I m so tired of my life

  84. S A D F U C K I N G L I F E

    May 19, 2015 at 9:52 am

    i want to become rich and give all my money to my family before committing suicide so they can afford a decent funeral for me

  85. Anon

    May 19, 2015 at 11:13 pm

    All of you are attention whores who are to pussy to actually do anything..

  86. Jean

    May 20, 2015 at 7:23 pm

    I’m done with this life. I’m ready to move onto the next or whatever the hell is out there afterwards. If you’re reading this, I’m likely already gone. Goodbye.

  87. Kube

    May 21, 2015 at 1:42 am

    i dont like to tell my problem, or im scared to. if death comes to me today, i’d be the happiest person. dont know wat to do.

  88. james

    May 24, 2015 at 11:10 am

    I am waiting for apocalypse to come soon.

  89. disqus_ccRSwnXtN9

    May 24, 2015 at 3:48 pm

    It would be really nice If i could just die, and my organs would be used by people who really need them, and will run a happy life.

  90. Nate Dog

    May 25, 2015 at 9:33 pm

    I want to go too, I’ve tried so many times, I am immortal apparently. I cannot handle life taking a BIG HUGE dump on my heart anymore

  91. dave lost

    May 25, 2015 at 9:52 pm

    My wife has accused me of some horrible domestic violence felonies. I dont really think she understood how damaging it would be. I was in jail for 4 days, posted my own bail, presented with restraining orders where i couldnt see my 3 young boys, served divorce papers as well all within 5 days of said incident. I really don’t have anything left to live for, my job will have been taken from me. I am more than weak without my wife. She was the reason I lived for, then my children. I could not live without either if that makes sense.I am more than afraid to end my life yet I have nothing left exept heartache and endless shame. Name was trashed around town, embarrassed my children beyond comprehension. Having to deal with high priced attorney with no guarantee what will happen. I wish i would have a heartattack and just die now. I don’t think i have the strenghth to go thru a trial and drag everyone thru it. I would never hurt anyone but have been accused of doing so. Not a perfectr person, but not a bad person. Never been arrested or even had a speeding ticket. I am out of jail, yet in prison in my soul. Parts of my llife were blessed, parts in hell. I am below hell or rock bottom so far that i cant even see it…I wish god if there is a god would help prevail but may days get worse each day. My closest family has shut me out. I am the shame of the county, my beautiful wife and children now gone, job gone, money almost gone. Can someone please provide an answer

  92. Poppy K

    May 25, 2015 at 10:57 pm

    I want to die, but my loved ones would not let me, but that’s just more suffering knowing that they would feel like I do if I die.

  93. aparna

    May 26, 2015 at 3:27 am

    I just want to kill myself plz tell me painless die

  94. joann

    May 27, 2015 at 1:45 am

    Im just sad I want to be at peace

  95. joann

    May 27, 2015 at 1:47 am

    No one really knows my sadness but I hurt I’m so sad

  96. misery blvd

    May 27, 2015 at 12:20 pm

    Everyday I feel myself coming closer and closer to the moment when I finally kill myself.. I just need to stop being so gutless… I hate this world..

  97. haywood jablowme

    May 29, 2015 at 12:45 am

    Ya me too i would love to die so i could rest but knowing my luck what im going threw now would be my personal hell for ever and ever maybe ill try killing everyone else.die all you assholes that piss me off or just pull out in front of me die die die

  98. imnobodyandihavenothing

    May 30, 2015 at 2:13 am

    go fuck yourself and your mindless, insensitive, compassionless lecture. find another pulpit, loser

  99. Anonymous

    May 30, 2015 at 2:14 am

    It’s crazy how so many posted on here so recently. I feel the same way only it’s very complicated I have a four year old son who is my world and I am six months pregnant. I am depressed and do not want to go on but I cannot bear leaving him alone in this world. I have been with the dad for 6 years and this whole pregnancy is a nightmare . Alone, lonely, and emotionally a man that doesn’t want to come home to the family just have fun and enjoy his social life. I am dying inside. Will b alone with 2 kids now but shot happens.

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:39 am

      In ur heart empty the place for a good partner n believe he will come to u.it worked for some.

  100. Raydrick Davis

    May 30, 2015 at 7:37 am

    man i dont know how i ended up on this page but if yall really want to kill yourself do it in a way that is honorable like fighting in the us army or be a police officer, firefighter,etc.. you can make a REAL difference in in this world and your disregard fot your life could be your greatest asset!

  101. Linda

    May 31, 2015 at 1:09 am

    I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live. Does that make any sense ?
    I have been divorced for 3 yrs. living with my Mom, taking care of her, but now I am so depressed. Watching her worsen over these 3yrs is so depressing.
    She is Legally Blind, got very sick w/bronchitis in Fl. Now she is home w/me in CT.
    Her hearing is worse now than in Jan. when she went to Fl. She needs constant care. My depression is bad. I know I can’t die bc I have 2 Adult children & I know it would ruin the rest of their lives.
    I am living in my mother’s home which means I need to move out & I have never lived alone. I am very scared bc I have such High Anxiety I can’t even think of words anymore. I know it is special to still hav ur Mom @ age 93, I am 62. i wish there was help in the community for people like me that cannot function on their own.
    Any ideas frm anyone

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:36 am

      If u were in my area i would come to help u

  102. Abinash Dash

    May 31, 2015 at 12:47 pm

    I quit

  103. Cheenu A

    June 1, 2015 at 4:47 am

    Please suggest some easy and painless way to quit my life, am in that worse situation kindly share ur thoughts to put an end. taking pesticides and drinking alcohol is one of the way i suggested till yet. Gonna proceed with the same

  104. abhinay

    June 2, 2015 at 5:31 pm

    If i didn’t had my parents who would soon need someone to take care of them I would have long gone……I m a 19 year old guy and I don’t want to live anymore…don’t think I will ever find happiness and love…..

  105. Shiquita

    June 2, 2015 at 9:15 pm

    I just want a quick painless way without failure.

  106. Rochelle Lopez

    June 2, 2015 at 10:57 pm

    I’m broken I’ll never be the same again… I want eternal sleep and then I’ll really be free

  107. omyr

    June 3, 2015 at 8:43 am

    im already dead by the time someone was able to read this, the most important person in my life just left me for another guy. bye guys. and please be brave unlike me a coward

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:32 am

      U r not a coward. U r sensitive, sincere. This world is not for such ppl

  108. David Shaw

    June 3, 2015 at 7:35 pm

    Ive tryrd and failed over the yrz all I want is just 2 go

  109. David Shaw

    June 3, 2015 at 7:40 pm

    They sacars will heal when its been 17 yes now n they feel just as open as when I first got them uu start 2 get up just 2b kicked BL n deeper this time

  110. tom

    June 3, 2015 at 8:32 pm

    i am only 16 and have had enough already, hopefully by the time some of you guys are reading this, i’ll be gone. I just want people to know it was the best thing for me. Goodbye.

  111. zarif

    June 4, 2015 at 8:37 pm

    Hi everyone I am new in this discussion, I swear this is my last week I am 20 years old I am feed up in this London show me an easy way to die my
    my address is w6 9jq room 20 you will see it in news 07473776028

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:29 am

      Zarif, dear r u bk ? Or u r ……

      • Lite

        June 10, 2015 at 3:29 am

        Plz answer

  112. aaliyah

    June 5, 2015 at 1:34 am

    I fill like killin my self everyday for the pasted two year because my dad has never cared bout me he was on harin an been in an out of jail seens I was three I never really care until last year I am 12 my mom cares about her boyfriend more than me she buys him thing all the time and I grandma has really done every thing for me since I was born and I have 3 brother and they cal me a whore every day I just fill like one now and I tried to hang my self 3-5 times I tried to dround my self an surfer cate. people hate me in class they bully me fuck it I should just die

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:28 am

      I’m sorry. I understand totally. I was there.find someone here who might understand u.u need a empath listener

  113. anything

    June 5, 2015 at 6:11 am

    i want the fastest and the painless way if anyone knows tell me dont tell me gun cuz i dont have it and dont tell me sleeping pills i tried it it fucked up my life more

  114. robert douglas

    June 6, 2015 at 9:34 am

    I’ve lost my kids over a lie my life has always been about people how leave it…
    I’ve tried hard to keep my head up but wen u try doing good and the person who it matters to don’t listen it hurts and that person is the only think keep u here don’t care what so u do……I’ve lived a life that most people dream……i think it is time to move on……so what is the fastest way to go

  115. Ian Canto

    June 6, 2015 at 4:09 pm

    i want to die

  116. Kathy

    June 6, 2015 at 5:23 pm

    I am 12 And i wanna die

  117. Kathy

    June 6, 2015 at 5:26 pm

    I am 12 And i wanna kill myself because i did a mistake in my life Put everthime i tried to kill myself there something that stop me i have alot of friend that Care about me And my family Care about me also And i dont want to Hurt them what should i do

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:23 am

      U r not sure yet so wait. I think it’s about ur past lives.

  118. Kathy

    June 6, 2015 at 5:31 pm

    How to die with no pain please someone till me

  119. Kathy

    June 6, 2015 at 5:47 pm

    I tried to kill my self i got mark on my hand

  120. disqus_HVJ0fLLgtF

    June 8, 2015 at 2:19 am

    I’ve been going through a lot of shit lately and I’m fed up. I just want to end my life and get the fuck out. I have no one to say anything to. I just turned 17 and I had tempted suicide ever since I was about 12. My head heart and my stomach hurts everyday because the amount of times I had cried. I’m shacking everyday and people think I’m nervous but no I think I have something wrong with me and my parents really don’t care.
    Good luck to everyone.
    Kimberly

  121. Sarah Hooper

    June 8, 2015 at 7:06 am

    so done trying

  122. ashley

    June 8, 2015 at 7:25 am

    I just want this to end… I don’t want to hurt anymore. It’s not that I want to die. But I want the pain to stop. I need it to stop… and that’s the only way. I don’t want to feel anymore… I just don’t know how to do it. I’ve researched all the pills I have here, and they don’t kill you if you take enough. What pills should I take that will help me overdose the fastest? Help please.

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:20 am

      No.most time overdose don’t work

  123. Manpreet Kaur

    June 8, 2015 at 6:07 pm

    Hi guys, i am 27 years old..i have just lost my bf and best friend.m done! And wana go from this earth..it is just my parents and my sisters due to which i am unable to take step towards suicide.. And dont tell me i have to live for family etc..things..i know i have to but actually i am becoming selfish that i just dont wana bother….i am just thinking of my pain right now…i have no objective or happiness or dreams now…nothing! Help and tell me a natural way to die so that i dont commit suicide and die naturally

    • Lite

      June 10, 2015 at 3:19 am

      I’m looking for the same thing. Let me know if u can find

      • Manpreet Kaur

        June 10, 2015 at 2:56 pm

        Hey,I am so confused people say dnt die because you have to suffer the way either its here or after death, bcz u wont get birth instantly and your soul then has to suffer..neither can i die nor can i live!! What to do guys pls help..my bf died and many other pains related to him already and then my best frnd died and noe what??? I feel hell alone and painful bcz i feel no happiness with anybody/anything else…help help …what to do

    • Lite

      June 13, 2015 at 11:59 pm

      My dear, tnx for ur reply. I’m listening. I know u don’t want my sorry. I want to say I’m listening. Can u reach me at my Facebook just add a massage. I’m waiting to connect with you. :lite worker noor

      • Manpreet Kaur

        June 14, 2015 at 4:44 am

        Thnx for replying..m not on fb.i just need people’s support bcz i cnt make the decision alone.And as you know nobody supports if you talk about dying stuff..so pls be there and once anybody is clear on how to die naturally , without Commiting suicide, just ruining your body and dying naturally,then let me know

        • Lite

          June 14, 2015 at 7:32 am

          Hi,m.p. it’s ok now i figured it out how to stay connected through email. I was having problems with my email. I didn’t know how to fix it. It’s ok if u r not on Facebook. I’m not big on social media, so fb. something i already familiar with. It’s ok my dear now. I figured it out for now. U have me as a compassionate spirit.

          • Manpreet Kaur

            June 14, 2015 at 11:20 am

            Thank you much!! Kisses!!

  124. Lite

    June 10, 2015 at 2:18 am

    I have been suicidal forever, was on heavy medications, felt like medicated zombie. So after 8 years i stopped. I’m not walking dead i feel the beauties around me.but not enough to go through the emotional pain. Im very much sure i want to go. Tried overdose but came bk with dark experience. I don’t want to experience darkness. I felt i was not close to light, i was trying to reach the Creator but was chained n my muscles were squeezed, i wasn’t free. Than i came bk to life. I was thankful to feel the air on my skin.i felt taking my life many times after but don’t know how painful it’s going to be n i don’t want to get stuck in a dark place. It’s hard to talk to someone about ur suicidal ideas almost no one will understand without judgment. Now today i really feel if someone would help me to go. I can’t do it alone. Relationship, beauties in the world, nothing is worthy of my time. I really need to go to a better place. Anyone. …?

  125. Shiva Maruthi

    June 10, 2015 at 2:47 am

    i am diying now can u peple tell how to die with out pain

  126. Lite

    June 10, 2015 at 3:53 am

    My brothers n sisters, i hope, n pray tat u all find wat u looking for. May u find peace here or there. May the creator keeps u closer. One thing u r not cowards. We r sensitive. This world is a cruel place to breath. But ur spirit will fight the ending. I believe death can be peaceful if u hav Devin help. I was thinking slow poisoning for myself . I don’t know wen. But i need proper info. I don’t want my body to go through pain 4 no reason. Let’s pray for each other we meet in a better place soon. No matter what i will be kind until my last breath here..

  127. scott

    June 10, 2015 at 12:59 pm

    i have already mde up my mind it not if but when and time to doit is very soon i’am not telling anybody where i’am going to do it but i have place already picked out how i have several ways but i think one will be by train i have already starting going up the veins with a knife just gett ready for the big slice i guess when you have to do you have to doit and i’am ready

    • Manpreet Kaur

      June 11, 2015 at 4:13 pm

      I cnt suicide because of family!! But its hell to live without my love i have lost!! I can’t bear the absence. I hate rest of all..i know i wont live even after passage of time. Have you taken any step ?

  128. Jimbo7

    June 11, 2015 at 12:15 am

    I spent an hour typing and deleting here. Liberal Feminazi Progressive Labour Libdem supporting idiots are your worst enemy here. They only care about bettering their own ‘appearance’ unfortunately there are a lot of them AT THE MOMENT!
    I hate them!
    they care about themselves and want all the power but just stay silent and they will expose themselves for you and reveal how disgusting they really are 😀
    Things in life can get awful. But the sun ALWAYS shines again. It doesn’t take guts to kill yourself! It takes courage and absolute amazingness to realize that the twats that get everything given to them on a plate are arseholes and will end up where you are now eventually! You will end up where you want to be in the end if you persevere. Dying is not the solution. My own father wishes that I’d died at birth :( SAD!
    But I use that as strength to carry on and one day perhaps to create a proper family where I can show my children that I love them and support them! Keep going and make your’self’ proud! You came into this world alone… use support and love not negligence and hate!

  129. Lite

    June 11, 2015 at 2:44 am

    I’m still alive. I could find family or close friend to talk . I tried listening to ekter tolle ytube. I learn about thoughts .my thousands of thoughts r not me. Don’t believe wat ur thoughts tell u. It might make sense to u too. I also found a stone call Aqeeq, u might find in arabic stores. It supposed to share ur pain or put joy in ur heart. It vibrates in tat tune. ,Google it first. I go with my instinct. I’m feeling a little bit better. Still hurting. ..i can feel this stone does something. It might take a few days for some . I connect to nature easy. For me it was instant. I felt a connection with the stone. U need to keep contact with it. Yap I’m crazy. But if u want to try. Let me know if it works.

    • Manpreet Kaur

      June 11, 2015 at 4:11 pm

      What have you done to yourself?

  130. DumbassNigga

    June 11, 2015 at 6:38 pm

    I am going tonight. With carbon monoxide. Hope my ’91 buick can do it.

    I am going to hurt my family one last time, so that I never hurt them again, only thing I am afraid of, is endangering whoever finds me. I will leave a note in plain sight warning of the poison in the air I guess.

    • Manpreet Kaur

      June 13, 2015 at 6:28 am

      U there?

    • Guess'd

      July 17, 2015 at 2:09 am

      U’ll be sick before it’s over. Try a sedative first. It takes hours. And hours. I hope u find something else- time or interest.

  131. Howard

    June 11, 2015 at 9:19 pm

    I’m ready to die also

  132. fakdisshit

    June 12, 2015 at 4:22 pm

    I’m just wasting air really, i’m sure someone less fortunate would appreciate this life of mine but I’ve lost all hopes. Just waiting another to go by, no goals so I have no motivation. No passion for anything. I feel like if I was to die, there would be one less person to feed in this world. …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… sooooooo close to the edge lol just need a little push, I wanna meet my maker, or just sleep for eternity, either way it’s more amusing than this :)

  133. Zorteque

    June 12, 2015 at 8:22 pm

    Feel as if I am not wanted or needed so what is the point, I am now 53 years old my parents disowned me when I was 1.5 years old, was fostered and subsequently abused till I was 17 years old, tried to end it all seven times to date but failed obviously. I am totally drained I spend all day every day pleasing everyone in the hope that they accept me but who am I kidding everyone is just out to please themselves at any cost, they don’t want to hear your troubles as long as you are pleasing them who cares. I do it hurts to be unnoticed, unappreciated, and treated no better than the proverbial doormat.

  134. Manpreet Kaur

    June 13, 2015 at 5:13 pm

    People why dont you reply? Which is the painless way to die? Which must be the successful way , i should not be left alive!,pls tell

  135. Lite

    June 13, 2015 at 10:22 pm

    Tnx manpreet, u care. Sending u love. I’m ok now . I’m open to talk to anyone who needs someone to listen to without judgment. I know how it hurts. …

  136. anita

    June 15, 2015 at 6:27 am

    i just dont wana live anymore if u r always getting bullied and u r feed up of ur LIFE… then whts the point of living

  137. mojojojo

    June 15, 2015 at 6:25 pm

    ill pay anyone £2000 who is up for taking me out

  138. mojojojo

    June 15, 2015 at 6:42 pm

    £2000 to anyone who will kill me let me know

    • Guess'd

      July 17, 2015 at 2:02 am

      Can u not purchase a gun? Or a toy gun& try death by po? Sign a dnr with ur primary doctor prior. Hope u have no children and find relief in the next exhausting cycle. Sry I’m not close enuf.

  139. Sera

    June 22, 2015 at 9:45 am

    People who take their life are not selfish just in a pain that never ends, how those who take their lives are judged, like they committed a crime. The lack of understanding, the lack of compassion. Each person has the right to their own life and how they end it, my compassion is that they felt so alone, so lost that another human being was so far from them they were unable to seek help. Who is at fault here? those who have taken their lives or attempted or those left behind? I have clinically died 4 times due to overdosing and gassing myself in my car, was I thinking about family, friends and loved ones, NO. The emotional pain was so great all I could do was think about ending it, it was only after that I felt shame for the distress I caused others and with their comments “How could you do this to us”, making it ALL about them. Another bullshit thing to add to the list, why should I feel responsible for their feelings, This is MY fucking LIFE, MY LIFE. Next time I’m going to sort my will, pack all my stuff up for charity, and leave every thing in order, no stone unturned. I can’t live with the memories of sexual abuse as a child even after 5 years of therapy, I can’t live with my Bi-Polar 1 or Complex Post Traumatic Disorder , I can’t live with the cocktail of medication I must take every day which only controls the degree to which I get ill, I am tiered of the episodes of illness and I am tiered of the isolation it has bought me. I can not have children, I can not hold down a job due to bouts of illness, all my partners have left me due to my illness, I do not have one friend, I am empty, I have no future, all I have is the screaming in my mind, the pain of life. I am not selfish, I am lost in life, like all those who have ended their lives before me, IT IS NOUGHTHING NEW.

  140. Kelsey Zawacki

    July 4, 2015 at 5:24 pm

    I can’t deal with it anymore goodbye

  141. Guess'd

    July 17, 2015 at 2:35 am

    Wanna know the bestest most natural, painless way to die??? Live til ur 85. Otherwise wth do ppl mean by painless? By natural? If u r in that much pain handle a couple hardcore hours& find a blade, a piece of rope, the rite kind of pills, a grip of insulin, some Succinylcholine…idk but know it will hurt& the ppl around u will be devastated. Do what the rest of the human waste does& mope thru it til everyone u know is dead or pushed away…just know that joke is on u! Cuz u’ll be back doing this same shit over& over& over& over… Hell! Want a gun? Some heavy sedatives? Someone to curb u or suffocate u in ur sleep? Come on down to the American Southwest, where u can get all that and more (literally) at Walmart! If I’m going to go, I might as well help as many ppl on my way&

  142. Dr Kran

    July 20, 2015 at 11:46 am

    It’s people like you who makes the coffin maker rich, and that’s a good thing I guess.
    People don’t understand that there are scars that can’t be seen, but they’re always assuming things will get better.

    Things doesn’t always get better just by standing idle, it’s the location you’re in that really screws you up. Try sky diving, don’t kill yourself, try rock climbing. Putting your life on the line increases your chances of not wanting to die.

    I can’t see your scars, but I can see your despair..
    I can’t even take my own advice.. Those are things people would ask you to do since they don’t know how to fix the problem. I’d rather die myself, but illegally.

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